Across the Pond

My arms are in soo much pain after my London trip yesterday. I bought lots of stuff and took photos of it all, so i’ll do a write up with pictures at some point. Probably next week lol I’m just too knackered after work. I’ve been quite stressed out today and really regret something at work :S but i guess i’ve just got to sort of let it go…..

Lu x

Sometimes I miss this.

I read his blog today since I haven’t in Forever and I couldn’t stop smiling the whole time I was reading it. He is a really great writer. Highlight of my day.

Lets update you!

Guys suck. Except these few Amazing ones I know. Paul, Andrew/Sherlock. Just to name my two favorites. So I’m dating Paul and loving it. Almost three months now. I got my senior pictures taken, They look good. College will be in Missouri next fall if I get accepted. And if I get higher than a 26 on my ACT score I could get a full scholarship covering room and board too. I know I’m cramming this all together. Sorrie. It’s been rainy and cold. Paul’s birthday is Monday. He will be old. <3 Dru should send him a blog link or something.. Maybe he'd blog?? Or yeeeah I know what you think about that. and understand that. But the blog could always use more readers right? ^_^

So I'm blogging for you my dear. I hope this lifts your spirits some.

Sometimes things don't make sense.. I offered and he kinda.. whats the word.. anyway I got shot down with that. Kinda knew I would though so it's no big deal. Halloween is here. I'm going to be a black cat or fox haven't decided yet. I like how life is now.. usually. I'm excited about college and moving to Missouri. Majoring in art with an emphasis on graphic design and going to take some psychology classes.

I miss my Paul. <3 but I get to see him soon.

~*Chi*~

In written Japanese there are 3 different sets of characters.

Hiragana:

Hiragana is the basic Japanese… alphabet… we’ll call it that. Hiragana is, in my opinion, the easiest to learn. It took me roughly a week or two, of practicing everyday to learn it. Now at my stage i can read it without thinking. Hiragana is used for particles (to be explained in another lesson), for suffixes like -san, -chan, -kun etc and it is also used where there is no Kanji for the word. With Hiragana there are 5 vowels and 39 vowel-constant unions (as wikipedia calls it lol). The character’s sounds can be changed in many ways: by adding ゛or ゜ to the character ; but adding a small tsu  っ which will double the following constant eg. Katta かった ; There are also small versions of the characters ya や, yu　ゆ and yo　よ, which manipulate the sound of the character before it (usually used with a character ending with a i) E.g. ちゃん the suffix chan.

Here is a list / table of Hiragana:

     a あ　　iい　　uう　　eえ　　oお

  ka か　 ki き　   ku く　 ke け　 ko こ

  ga が　 gi ぎ　 gu ぐ　 ge げ　  go ご

  sa さ　 shi し　 su す　 se せ　 so そ

  za ざ　     ji  じ　 zu ず　 ze ぜ      zo ぞ

  ta  た     chi ち　 tsu つ        te て　 to と

 da  だ　   di ぢ　 du づ　 de で　 do ど

 na  な　   ni に　 nu ぬ　 ne ね　 no の

 ha  は　 hi ひ　    fu ふ　 he へ　 ho ほ

 ba  ば　 bi び　   bu ぶ　 be べ　 bo ぼ

  pa ぱ　 pi ぴ　   pu ぷ　 pe ぺ　 po ぽ

  ma ま　 mi み　mu む　 me め　 mo も

   ra ら　    ri り　    ru る　    re れ　    ro ろ

   ya や　                  yu ゆ　　　             yo よ

    wa わ　　　　　　　　　                  wo を

    n ん

    kya きゃ                kyu きゅ　　           kyo きょ

    gya ぎゃ　           gyu  ぎゅ                  gyo ぎょ

    sha  しゃ                shu  しゅ                   sho しょ

       ja   じゃ                   ju  じゅ                      jo じょ

    cha  ちゃ                chu ちゅ                   cho ちょ

    nya  にゃ               nyu にゅ                  nyo にょ

    hya  ひゃ               hyu ひゅ                  hyo ひょ

     bya びゃ               byu びゅ                 byo びょ

     pya ぴゃ               pyu ぴゅ                pyo  ぴょ

    mya みゃ             myu みゅ               myo みょ

      rya りゃ                ryu りゅ                 ryo  りょ

Next Time…… Katakana

Lu x

I’m going to London tomorrow Yay!! ^o^ I plan on spending lots of money, i shall buy cute things and many magazines from the Japan Centre. And i shall take photos because that’s what i do haha.

I’ll upload the photos into a blog when i get home tomorrow and tell you about all the wonderful things i’ve done haha

As you can tell i’m UBER excited, i haven’t been to London for months and  I always love going to the Japan Centre and China Town. It’s amazing, and makes me feel happy ^o^ lol

Lu x

I want everyone to look at my profile and think I’m a dumb kid who doesn’t know anything about anything.

Then I want them to read something I’ve written.

Then I want them to pass out from ill-placed assumption.

I’m confident about my skills.

xxdruxx

Good morning bloggers

It’s very nearly time to get up and face the day. And how I wish I didn’t have to.

I slept on the floor last night because the couch isn’t comfortable for two. And because I couldn’t not sleep in his arms.

But, how I love couches. Everything was perfect – we decided to watch Van Helsing – which, btw, is the highest budget B-movie I’ve ever seen in my life – and we were curled up together on the couch being happy.

Then something shifted and I started playin the games I used to play with dan. The mind games where, for some reason, I get this huge, huge pleasure out of hurting him mentally. And I just kept pushing until we both ended up hurting lotses. I sometimes wish Dan could share some of the secrets of survival with the people I’m with. Then I realize how insensitive that would be and how he would never ever do that because he still wants me to come home.

Guppie pointed out that, theoretically I could call Dan at nearly any point and beg and be with him until the day I died. I don’t know if that would work, in practice, but it certainly makes Gup nervous. :/

It just makes me sad. I don’t want him to hurt for me anymore. I want us to be happy friends and hang out and be wonderful together. But – as Dan has rightly pointed out in the past – we’ll never be just friends. There’s just too much past and too much love for that.

So… Couches are wonderful places. You can blog on iPhones from them. You can kiss your lover on them. You can nearly break your own heart on them. You can rest you feet when they sting from running barefoot down the cold wet road in front of your house at 1am.

You can build real love – that doesn’t just go skin deep – and overcome ( or try to overcome, at least ) your fear of loss of interest and rejection and abandonment and make something real. And for that opportunity, at this moment in history, with the man that’s sleeping next to me, I thank you.

I thank you, Dan, Kevin, Jon…

Thank you for letting me go. Even of you didn’t want to. Even if you didn’t mean to. Even if I didn’t want you to.

I love you, Dan. You’re the only thing I don’t regret.

xxdruxx

They may think that i’m over it, but no. Being so close to your dream, then having it ripped away at the last second is horrible. So here i am telling you fine people the truth. a truth i can’t really tell other people. it gets me down when i think about it. makes my whole year feel like a waste of time. pointless. i regret not applying for 2009, but would i have got in. i doubt it.

I’ve been so down lately. could it be my disappointment. or something more. i dont know. i wish i could go back. go back and say yes.

Lu

Funniest article ever.

Seriously

I can haz brainz?

specially since I rape all of those sites on a regular basis. *nod*

xxdruxx

{ PS – I totally can’t believe Zombies wasn’t already a tag. Wtf?! }

[ edit: and this one too. ]

The weekend is upon us and it’s time to reveal what my plans are…

Well, no. It’s not. I’ll do that later =D

But I will tell you that I remembered what it is that I had scheduled tonight. Rocky Horror shadow cast = playing at Movie Tavern. I was gonna go see it. But, whatever.

I’ve also been invited by two separate people to do two separate things tonight AND invited Guppie out at like midnight ( even though I have to be awake at 7 ) when I knew fine well that I wouldn’t be sleeping since I’m helping JD get ready for a dance tonight. So…I’m stupid. lol =) I enjoy being a little social bug way too much and therefore way overstretch myself.

And I fell asleep at work today. Not for very long ( like 6 minutes ) and it was more of a doze than an actual nap. But, still….

I’m going to Blake’s though. I know that. I think it’s funny how the one thing that got the most votes on the poll ( Sleep ) is probably what’s going to happen the least this weekend. Oh wellz =D

xxdruxx

xxdruxx

[ haha, I typed it twice then decided to leave it. XD! ]

[ ps and and and, I have band practice 11 - 1 on sunday. When the crap am i going to A) See the garage [ maybe tomorrow afternoon? I know that some of my guys are all about the costumes and make up. Maybe someone will help me look amazingly awesome for the party ] B) Sleep?! [ We all know that Guppie + Dru = The Opposite of Sleep. Seriously. We counted FREAKING SPAGHETTI O'S to avoid sleeping. Wtf. ] But it’s okay. I’m glad I’m gonna be with the band again. And sunday I’m just going to insist on bed time around 6.30 or 7.

[ it's four-forty-two. 4.42. This blog was brought to you by awesome. xx ] ]

This weekend.

Ohhh emgee.

Saturday = 7am Church Cleaning ( yeah, I signed up. So what? )
8.55pm Bday Party for friend Amanda ( of the Easter Bunny )
9.00pm Bday Party with friend Blake ( of the computer programming and my short-lived obsession. ) [ not even sure about this. The invite was totally random and slightly reeked of "invite all of your friends on fb in the area" ]

Which is only slightly death inducing. Thing is…I want to hang out with the Garage. Which means…I’d have to ditch at least the last two items. Well…maybe not Amanda’s party because it gets over at like 11 or something which means I could go out to Haltom afterwards. But the other one goes until 3am and definitely = no Garage.

Plus Friday night is pretty much a no-go because staying up till 4 then going to clean the church reeking of cigarette smoke is probably not the most constructive way to live a life.

So…Blogosphere ( if you’re out there, listening ) please enlighten me. What should I do? Vote below to decide my weekend. You can leave a comment below if you have other ideas/suggestions/quantifications of your choice.

I miss the bag piper in San Antonio. He was so cool.

xxdruxx

( No Garage Cat on this one because there are not actual descriptions of adventures in the Garage. So…tag instead. )