This is a good outlet.. Then I remember other people read this  and i’m like wait…. Am I okay with other people reading this, is this appropriate? And that is when I remember I don’t care.  Who cares if you think less of me or not at all. I don’t.. It is your choice to read.  This is my outlet. This is my life.

“Don’t ever regret anything because it was once exactly what you wanted.”

I have to say I mostly agree with this.

I stopped talking to him because it is what I wanted.. sort of.  I reached out to him even after what he did because I wanted to. I still would give my life for him because I still want to. I want to regret this but I can’t.. It was once what I wanted so why regret it?

I think my pain in the neck ex has finally stopped texting me!

Some times I wonder if you really think about what you say.. or about what you think.  I want to believe it with all my heart and I do, but then I want to pull back into myself. Past events shouldn’t effect me and you. but they do. I put them behind me the best I can but I still remember and don’t know what to do. Can I push past this? More importantly, Should I? Is my heart right with what it wants or do I listen to my head this time?

If you do read this, feel free to ask me questions. I atleast hope you enjoy reading it.

Amin Mela Lle, Paul. <3

~*Chi*~