Ignorance or Ignoring..

I haven’t decided yet.

I’m thinking of ignoring the bad news for now. Sounds so nice.

Looking at the best things in my life: My Bubba and his girlfriend are the most amazing people ever!! <3 I’d be so lost with out them..

CHRISTMAS IS COMING UP 5 DAYS LEFT! Who can wait?

Prom dress looking- Exciting!  Found the perfect one I think. -might ask my girlfriend to go with me-

The ACT test totally Sucked! It wasn’t to bad though. It is killer waiting for my score to be processed or whatever! Gahh! Pray I did good.. And hoping for the acceptance letter from the college afterward too!!

I love Ignorance.. Sometimes..

Gah.. Well Love!

~*Chi*~

 

Christmas feelings

I’m so glad it snowed already. I have some really cool pictures because I made my brother go out and jump on the snow covered trampoline. Could this month be any more stressful? Sadly Yes. I was told not to blog about my ACT test coming up this Saturday… Sooo totally not blogging about that. :]

OH!!

‘Dru will start dating people again in 2012; after the end of the world. Seriously not before.. -Signed Dru-’

Still on a sticky note on my monitor so is my list of things to blog about!

So I’m thinking this over..

Use one word to describe me..

Sherlock- Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. (The detective knows me well.)

Hanhan- Lovely.

Bruce- Sexy or Flirty. (He told me to pick which ever I liked best but Sexy was his first choice.)

Kelsey- Fantastic.

If I was going to die tomorrow what would you want to tell me..

Avery- I would say that I love you and that I’d want to spend your last day with you =] (Cutest girl I ever met.)

Kelsey- You’re my best friend. And I love you. And I would miss you so much.

Katie- It amazes me how pretty you are.

I know some pretty swanky people. and they have my heart. I couldn’t have made it this far without them. ANYWAY MERRIE CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. Will blog about my ACT (which I’m stressing over. Just a little. I have faith in me and a wonderful guy (James) promised he would pray for me.)

Just a little peace.. Here and there.. All I want for Christmas is to stop all the fights.

Love Love Love

~*Chi*~

 

Xavier Whiskers

This Is Xavier Whiskers. He is a new addition to our family and a nice Thanksgiving gift. He was on our porch starving so we fed him. he ate three things of cat food the first night we found him. He is so precious. How could anyone drop him off and leave him? Xavier was definitely a house cat, he is use to petting and being held. He is a attention whore.  Gosh he is cute.

( WILL GO BACK AND ADD CAPTIONS AND FIX IT ALL NICE AND PRETTY SOON!! People are making me watch  shows with them..) Oh And If AnyOne Can Tell Me An Easier Way To Do This Picture Thing I’ll Kiss You And Take Pictures. Haha.. I’m Serious Though. Thanks!! <3 <3 <3

 

College

I can’t wait for college. This is dragging out to long. Snow. Rain. New people. One old friend. New places. New friends. New experiences. New feelings. New. What more could one want?

Missouri is a beautiful place. I will probably be staying with andrew a few times during the summer next year so I can hang with friends A LOT at the mall and stuff because it isn’t a very long walk. Then off to college around august. I’ll be back for thanksgiving, christmas, and three months in summer.

 

Will you Marry her?

I will.

I realized today that I say ‘I do’ a lot.

Loves that you blog more now that you can’t tweet. But like you I have a phone problem.. Rawr. I was washing some dirt out from between the keys -VERY CAREFULLY-  like I have done many times before. And now the keys are acting all weird. -wines- My phooone. I turned it off and have it open in hopes it will dry out or whatever is wrong with it. I think I might cry…

I haven’t slept well these past few days then I have been sleeping in. Been up thinking which can’t be very good.

Alls well that ends well.

Lets hope it ends well..

~*Chi*~

 

Post Quickie

Not quite how it sounds. =x

This is going to be a fast typed and hoped nothing is misspelled post!

I have to go get ready to leave soon for my bro’s swim team. Waiting for you. Oh and today and yesterday was really long and kinda dull. Oooh but last night was filled with a excitment I can’t share. I couldn’t sleep last night my brain wouldn’t let me. I was up till past midnight letting my mind wander to thoughts maybe it shouldn’t then back to the safer ones. All that made me smile.

I’m kind of stressing over this.. stupid boi. I really hate the way you are, but I don’t want you to change. I can’t really let go of this.. I know Dru knows this but I really wanna let him go yet I can’t do that. Help Him…

After Quickie.

Love ya,

~*Chi*~

 

Jackets are nice

I love mine.

Since he stopped messaging me, I shall blog.

Cotillion was really great. They did a thanksgiving dinner not that I could really eat any of it. Ah well it was awesome. I got to dance as a guy this time because the guys refuse to dance with each other and the girls don’t mind dancing together. I did love being the guy, twirling the girls.  Heh..  The last girl I danced with was the cutest thing. She kept laughing when one of us messed up and I couldn’t help but laugh with her. We did passing, twirling, and wraps. We talked a lot she made me smile. I got to escort her for a little bit too. Really enjoyed Cotillion Friday. I got to see Paul which of course was the best part of the night… along with the girl. ♥  Sorry Paul.

James and Heather took me.  Well their mom drove. I’m thankful for knowing them. They are great people. I might probably go to Akon with Heather and do a girls only thing. Sorta. MONEY. Stupid lack of.   James is amazingly awesome. Their little brothers are really hyper and talkative, but cute.

♥,

~*Chi*~

 

Needs this..

This is a good outlet.. Then I remember other people read this  and i’m like wait…. Am I okay with other people reading this, is this appropriate? And that is when I remember I don’t care.  Who cares if you think less of me or not at all. I don’t.. It is your choice to read.  This is my outlet. This is my life.

“Don’t ever regret anything because it was once exactly what you wanted.”

I have to say I mostly agree with this.

I stopped talking to him because it is what I wanted.. sort of.  I reached out to him even after what he did because I wanted to. I still would give my life for him because I still want to. I want to regret this but I can’t.. It was once what I wanted so why regret it?

I think my pain in the neck ex has finally stopped texting me!

Some times I wonder if you really think about what you say.. or about what you think.  I want to believe it with all my heart and I do, but then I want to pull back into myself. Past events shouldn’t effect me and you. but they do. I put them behind me the best I can but I still remember and don’t know what to do. Can I push past this? More importantly, Should I? Is my heart right with what it wants or do I listen to my head this time?

If you do read this, feel free to ask me questions. I atleast hope you enjoy reading it.

Amin Mela Lle, Paul. <3

~*Chi*~

 

We made it this far…

There are some things that you just can’t say. Thank you for texts and computers. With them we can tell people things that we would never say in person and then because of that we miss out on a lot. I think computers and phones make us lame. Say it straight to my face. Stop hiding behind electronics.

Halloween was amazing! I saw 4 of my babies, two favorite cousins, Paul, my grandparents, my mom, and brother! I’m so not use to carrying babies all night. They were sooo cute though. I was a cat for Halloween.

I miss him.

I saw him for his birthday!! Yes. Oh and I took my grandma out for lunch since it was her birthday to on Monday.

Study Study Study School School School School School School Study Study Paul Paul Friends Friends Paul Friends School School School Study.  There is my life. Haha.  Thanksgiving is coming up!!

~*Chi*~

 

I want circles not squares.

Sometimes I miss this.

I read his blog today since I haven’t in Forever and I couldn’t stop smiling the whole time I was reading it. He is a really great writer. Highlight of my day.

Lets update you!

Guys suck. Except these few Amazing ones I know. Paul, Andrew/Sherlock. Just to name my two favorites. So I’m dating Paul and loving it. Almost three months now. I got my senior pictures taken, They look good. College will be in Missouri next fall if I get accepted. And if I get higher than a 26 on my ACT score I could get a full scholarship covering room and board too. I know I’m cramming this all together. Sorrie. It’s been rainy and cold. Paul’s birthday is Monday. He will be old. <3 Dru should send him a blog link or something.. Maybe he'd blog?? Or yeeeah I know what you think about that. and understand that. But the blog could always use more readers right? ^_^

So I'm blogging for you my dear. I hope this lifts your spirits some.

Sometimes things don't make sense.. I offered and he kinda.. whats the word.. anyway I got shot down with that. Kinda knew I would though so it's no big deal. Halloween is here. I'm going to be a black cat or fox haven't decided yet. I like how life is now.. usually. I'm excited about college and moving to Missouri. Majoring in art with an emphasis on graphic design and going to take some psychology classes.

I miss my Paul. <3 but I get to see him soon.

~*Chi*~