funsies

I spent the evening out and about, yesterday. Several hours well spent I believe. Lyric is saying she must corrupt me, haha, watching people smoke steam is fascinating! Then we  headed to Kush, where it’s all blacklight, and you can draw on things (including people) with yellow sharpie. ^_^ Conversed with a cop, the most hilarious thing he said, was: “If you’re not 21, I don’t want to know about it.”  haha, he was joking, but if he hadn’t been, I would be wondering about the state of the department.

The Coffee shop was next. Now, barring the Jupiter House, I’d never been to one. I think Lyric was trying to show me that there are weirder people than me.  :D if thats possible,  i’ll let you know.

On a side note, Life sucks.  //// This is all i have for now.

See ya’ll another time.

-P^K^K-

 

Need to do more..

Right so i’m not helping to teach Japanese at my old college anymore, plus I’ve completed my advanced course :/

I’ve been working most of the week this week, which is good lol, it’s keeping me busy. But come next week, i’m going to have soo much time on my hands. I’m hoping i can get some overtime though~ doubt it tbh.

I can’t wait for January when the Japanerse classes start up again. I really want to help out again. It’s keeping it fresh in my mind and i just love teaching. I feel like i need to do more haha, i want to keep as busy as I can up until Uni.

Speaking of Uni~ i have to sort out my student finance soon, prob after xmas. I’ve also got to go up to Sheffield and take another gander around. Also at the accomodation. I’m hoping that I wont have to go up there on my own, i know i’ll be meeting up with the friends i’m living with, but i still wanna take someone from home.

If i had to choose 1 person to take with me it’d be dru but you are pretty much the otherside of the world (kinda)

T-T

haha anyways, this post has been an ickle bit pointless. I’ve still got all the photos from my London trip to put up, but i’ll more than likely go there again before I get round to blogging about the 1st one haha. I’ll try my best

Lu x

 

Dear Salt Shaker,

You live on my desk.

And you have for a little while now. About…a month and a half?

How did you get there? You were acquired for me by my wonderful boyfriend when I sighted my constantly under-salted lunches. You see, little shaker, I crave huge quantities of salt for some unknown reason and, in this way, you help me immensely.

Truth be told, you belong at J&J’s Pizza on the square, and I really did intend to take you back when you were either nearly empty or replaced by a shaker from my own home. But, you see, I bonded with you. You have been my friendly little desk sentinal, awake with me until 5am on Thanksgiving when we so dutifully finished the slideshow thing, asleep with me during my sometimes naps at lunch time and invariably improving my lunch with your yummy goodness. If you could talk, I would have to kill you because you know company secrets and stuff. But, since you can’t, you remain my silent companion, and in a way I love you for that.

Your deskmate,

Dru x

 

Dear Lindsay,

I am so sorry.

Sometimes I think of how very light and fun you are and I wonder how much brighter this place must have seemed with you here. You took care of them – not just him, but all of them. Sure, I cook a meal every now and then, but that’s mostly because I want real food and I know they’ll take it anyways even if I do just make it for me. I can’t imagine that his room, his bed, his life was as disheveled when you were here because you are so neat, so orderly.

And then there’s your eyes. When you talk about him, I see that selfsame longing and devotion I felt, and on occasion still feel, for the guy I liked from before freshman year. And it hurts me. I think of how badly my heart ached after he walked out with her and how I did very nearly the same thing. Yes, he didn’t specifically leave you for me – not by any stretch of the imagination – but it must feel like that. And you’re so sweet and kind, you’re everything a girlfriend is supposed to be. I’m not.

I feel like I stabbed you in the back, and I am so, so sorry. I don’t know exactly why ( it probably has something to do with how awesome you are ) but I love you, little friend. And I hurt for having hurt you.

I try to do right by him, and I try to look out for him when I can. And I only hurt him every now and again and that is mostly accidental. I honestly am doing the best I can – well, very nearly the best.

I’m sorry. Thank you for being my friend anyway.

xx Dru

 

Christmas feelings

I’m so glad it snowed already. I have some really cool pictures because I made my brother go out and jump on the snow covered trampoline. Could this month be any more stressful? Sadly Yes. I was told not to blog about my ACT test coming up this Saturday… Sooo totally not blogging about that. :]

OH!!

‘Dru will start dating people again in 2012; after the end of the world. Seriously not before.. -Signed Dru-’

Still on a sticky note on my monitor so is my list of things to blog about!

So I’m thinking this over..

Use one word to describe me..

Sherlock- Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. (The detective knows me well.)

Hanhan- Lovely.

Bruce- Sexy or Flirty. (He told me to pick which ever I liked best but Sexy was his first choice.)

Kelsey- Fantastic.

If I was going to die tomorrow what would you want to tell me..

Avery- I would say that I love you and that I’d want to spend your last day with you =] (Cutest girl I ever met.)

Kelsey- You’re my best friend. And I love you. And I would miss you so much.

Katie- It amazes me how pretty you are.

I know some pretty swanky people. and they have my heart. I couldn’t have made it this far without them. ANYWAY MERRIE CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. Will blog about my ACT (which I’m stressing over. Just a little. I have faith in me and a wonderful guy (James) promised he would pray for me.)

Just a little peace.. Here and there.. All I want for Christmas is to stop all the fights.

Love Love Love

~*Chi*~

 

Headaches

So I found an Algebra equation that shows 1=0… Ican prove it wrong, but I want to prove it right.. It made my head hurt, so I returned to an old Haunt on the web that I used to go to. There I found riddles. Can any of you whom comment figure out this nasty one? I must determine a prize for whoever gets it though, haha! In any case, this one is for fun.

A mystery,a troubling thing.
Destruction of everything.
Here I fight
Not alone,but spread out.

 

-P^K^K-

 

wth

Why did I bring the big box* of death if I totally wasn’t going to use it?

I guess I used it briefly.

And I did add like 800 words in the course of today.

Which is probably less than useful considering I need to finish up the project I’m working on at home now. And I don’t know why I’d be able to do it faster at home. It’s ten pages of editing…

My life’s getting out of hand. Robyn said I was a good business investment, but I sometimes can’t help thinking I’m not cut out for this grown-up lifestyle. I’ve definitely gotten really bad at managing my finances. For example: I spent $60 today on something I just don’t have the money for.

I bought ( hopefully reputable ) ticket savings things for Dallas Stars games. I got three free tickets and buy one get one type things. I’m gonna offer my mom the buy one get one.

And I think I’m going to have to ask for the $50 she promised me. I don’t know. *sigh*

Basically, halloween involved a huge fight between her and I which ended with her revoking the gift she’d given me ( because I told her I didn’t really like it because it was NOT what she’d promised me and it wasn’t really anything that I cared about ) and telling me she was just going to give me $50 instead. Well…I’m dead broke and I’m supposed to be going to a NOWD ( Night of Writing Dangerously ) thing for NaNo and I’m supposed to be going to see Imogen Heap ( which I’m defs gonna have to cancel. I have no money ) and I’m supposed to be going to see Eisley ( which I most certainly do NOT want to cancel ) and…I’m broke.

Why did I buy that? That makes $100 straight out of my last check that I wasted. You see, having money like this is really bad for me.

So.

I’m going to start putting money in a “savings account.” But only a hypothetical account, because you have to have $500 or more to have a savings account now or you get like two hundred dollars in fines every month. >.<

I'm going to start plan where I write down how much i've "put in savings" and that money is going to be inaccessible to me. That way, maybe I'll stop dropping literally hundreds of dollars on fast food and entertainment that I really can't afford.

I don't even have a car! What the heck is that?!

The downside to all this is that my life is about to get a heck of a lot more boring. And I'm probably not going to eat very much anymore considering there's never anything at the commune to eat and my house is woefully understocked of anything even remotely edible by me ( other than tomato soup. Go tomato soup. ) which means starvation if I'm not buying food.

Oh! I just remembered we have rice and soy sauce. So…I'm making myself egg fried rice on a regular basis now.

And I'm supposed to be cleaning out the fridges.

And my room.

All this weekend.

So much for ever seeing Guppie ever again.

And I got stood up again.

And i can't move out because of financial restrictions but I really don't want to live at home anymore.

dru is not in a good mood.

Can you tell?

Maybe when I get a car I won't feel so trapped.

But I can't get a car if I keep THROWING MY FUCKING MONEY AWAY!

grr.

xxdruxx

*Guppie’s Computer Case. It’s huge and looks like it could very easily contain a bomb.

 

Paul’s day….

I am doing math, Algeblah is possessing me. Alas, I must complete it anyways. Tonight i’m going to see my friends, and I get to see Stephanie! YAYZ! For those who don’t know, Stephanie is my girlfriend. I love being random, and often say pointless things, but tonight i have to be polite, use proper grammer, and manners. This could be painful =)..  In any case, my day has been fairly boring, and I am returning to my demonic algeblah.

Amin Mela Lle, Stephanie <3

~Paul

 

We made it this far…

There are some things that you just can’t say. Thank you for texts and computers. With them we can tell people things that we would never say in person and then because of that we miss out on a lot. I think computers and phones make us lame. Say it straight to my face. Stop hiding behind electronics.

Halloween was amazing! I saw 4 of my babies, two favorite cousins, Paul, my grandparents, my mom, and brother! I’m so not use to carrying babies all night. They were sooo cute though. I was a cat for Halloween.

I miss him.

I saw him for his birthday!! Yes. Oh and I took my grandma out for lunch since it was her birthday to on Monday.

Study Study Study School School School School School School Study Study Paul Paul Friends Friends Paul Friends School School School Study.  There is my life. Haha.  Thanksgiving is coming up!!

~*Chi*~

 

Couches

Good morning bloggers

It’s very nearly time to get up and face the day. And how I wish I didn’t have to.

I slept on the floor last night because the couch isn’t comfortable for two. And because I couldn’t not sleep in his arms.

But, how I love couches. Everything was perfect – we decided to watch Van Helsing – which, btw, is the highest budget B-movie I’ve ever seen in my life – and we were curled up together on the couch being happy.

Then something shifted and I started playin the games I used to play with dan. The mind games where, for some reason, I get this huge, huge pleasure out of hurting him mentally. And I just kept pushing until we both ended up hurting lotses. I sometimes wish Dan could share some of the secrets of survival with the people I’m with. Then I realize how insensitive that would be and how he would never ever do that because he still wants me to come home.

Guppie pointed out that, theoretically I could call Dan at nearly any point and beg and be with him until the day I died. I don’t know if that would work, in practice, but it certainly makes Gup nervous. :/

It just makes me sad. I don’t want him to hurt for me anymore. I want us to be happy friends and hang out and be wonderful together. But – as Dan has rightly pointed out in the past – we’ll never be just friends. There’s just too much past and too much love for that.

So… Couches are wonderful places. You can blog on iPhones from them. You can kiss your lover on them. You can nearly break your own heart on them. You can rest you feet when they sting from running barefoot down the cold wet road in front of your house at 1am.

You can build real love – that doesn’t just go skin deep – and overcome ( or try to overcome, at least ) your fear of loss of interest and rejection and abandonment and make something real. And for that opportunity, at this moment in history, with the man that’s sleeping next to me, I thank you.

I thank you, Dan, Kevin, Jon…

Thank you for letting me go. Even of you didn’t want to. Even if you didn’t mean to. Even if I didn’t want you to.

I love you, Dan. You’re the only thing I don’t regret.

xxdruxx